My next proj will be 未来不是梦.
Everyone guessed as much, me also hoping, and it came true.
AP xiaobai and 导演lai ling.
Omg can't imagine working with lai ling. Gona have a hard time man. Perhaps even worse then guang rong.
But abit glad that my round is the round going japan. Means I can help out with all preparations. Better still if i can get to go! *Pray*
Fix crew is uncle lim! yay i like uncle lim. kinda miss him haha
Had a small talk with christina just now. Wow big cast. I guess its considered a 大制作. So many 主景! And 1 of it is a yacht! Omg. Something new and exciting!
Its going to be a tough show. Tougher than 不凡的爱. I'm going to be mentally prepared, and go on with a positive attitude. To learn see and experience new things.


The show is finally finish. (!)
Though I just joined in halfway, working with artistes, producer and assistant producer have been great. The 4 main cast: zoe, hanwei, rui en and elvin, are nice people. Esp rui en and elvin. Maybe because zoe and hanwei are like ah ge ah jie tats why didnt mix with us much. But they are still nice!
There was once in studio hanwei packed dinner for all. I didnt know he included me too, when I came back from toilet, they are already eating and asked me to join in where my pack of rice was already there. We had zi cha, a table of artistes producer assistant producer and me, so 温馨.
Zoe...not bad la, always got tidbits haha. On our last day, she bought a jap drink for me, say its v gd for health.
Rui en...she's the nicest princess! Very real. I duno how to describe her, she's just a vv nice person. I like her. Cos she and elvin are the main cast, we went through alot (hardships) together. eg going to a hot and wulu part of ubin, a deep forested pit in a wulu part of s'pore.
Elvin. When I 1st saw him a wardrobe, when I was still a newbie, I didnt think much abt him. A ordinary guy. But when I worked with him in this proj, I find him more and more charming. Like him not like pinghui type of feeling just idolise, its those...really like him le hahahaha. We grew closer also la, exchanged numbers, small talk, I sat his car to our 庆功宴. His new white benz! Did you read it in iweekly? Anyway it was cool haha.
Ok tats all for the show 不凡的爱. Will know my new show on mon. Pray. Hope can get the show with rui en and elvin again. With bonus cast-pinghui hahaha.


I'm sorry I still unable to forgive and forget.
I have not gotten over it.
Just let me keep on dwelling on it.
Forget abt contacting me.
I'm slowly adapting and getting used to it.
The hurt, and scar, are already there.


2 things.

I'm so guilty. But there's nothing I can do. He also seem to ignore me already. But all the while I call them this, he call me that too. How I know he got gf le. If I knew I wouldnt even msg him. You know me, i dont stick to ppl who have gf 1. eg joe.

Then, I just ned to talk to someone abt this. Its disturbing me big time. And the mutual person, is UNCONTACTABLE.

3 times. I msg. Call. And msg again.

If you are busy at that time, i can understand. But after 3 attempts, from noon till night, still no response. Can anybody tell me why. Whatever excuse I can accept, is only if she forgot to bring her hp out.

1 msg, you may have no time to reply. The missed call. Usually if a person decided to call instead of sms, its of more importance right? and for the 2nd time you saw this person name appear, even if its not smthg damn urgent, you will also sense that the person wants to get in touch with you right?

The person msg again. I mean, normally you would reply right? Tell me under what circumstances you wont reply, ie you dont like the person? Yes, by your actions you are telling me this.

And to think I still bought you a bag when I go shopping just now. The 1st person I thought of is you. However I start to think a few minutes later. Why am I doing this. Is it worth it. I dont feel appreciated at all, then why I still treat you nice.

I dont know. And I dont know if I should still continue to get in contact with you. Even if I did, I think you will also think my actions are wrong. But whats done is done.

The bottomline. I'm still a 罪人.


Olympics table tennis - Li Jiawei vs Zhang Yining

1st time i watch table tennis match.
I never like this sport, but admire the players cos I feel its a tough sport to master.
And it goes pick pock pick pock pick pock.
Only interesting part is when the ball drops then we'll (or i'll) go 'hai!'
And the match continues. Pick pock pick pock pick pock. And the match finishes in a few minutes.

Back to Li Jiawei & Zhang Yining.

The match just now, was close. Actually half the balls that Li Jiawei lost was due to the ball didnt cross over, which i thought shouldnt have happen so many times. Why her angle had been wrong. Its very wasted. If not for these balls, she could have won.

Its a pity. Her skills are unquestionable, its the balls that hit the net.

So in the early nineties, Li Jiawei & Zhang Yining were schoolmates in Beijing sports school.

How does it feel to compete vigorously with someone who were once in the same boat?


Wow so long since i last blog. Wonder if there's anyone still reading.
The last entry was about him.
This entry is about him again.
Whenever I think of him, this is my only source that I can let out.
Cos no one for me to talk it out.
Anyway, i STILL realised i'm STILL thinking of him.
Though i've seen the ugly side of him.
Wat can i do ar.
The feeling of keep thinking abt someone helplessly is terrible.


He wore specs today.
As handsome. More handsome.
Though we didnt talk even when we met.
Still. =)

Her

Altimate moodswing cum stubborn ger
Age: Turning old
Love my parents.
Love children.
Love swimming.
Love to teach.
Love dancing.
Pessimistic.
Escape-ist.

My recipe

How to make a winnie

Ingredients: 5 parts jealousy 3 parts crazyiness 1 part empathy

Method: Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Serve with a slice of lustfulness and a pinch of salt. Yum!