Whew. Today is a panicky day. Whole day mind is full of thoughts.
Actually its good. I rather everyday like this. But my 'weak' heart can't take it for very long. Haha.

The buyer for Joo Seng Warehouse called, and asked for some things.
1st, 'scolded' by the owner.
Then have to call management office, NEA - which refer me to ACRA - which refer me to URA - which then refer me back to NEA. Made alot of calls in the morning la. Until luan.
But up till now, still pending. Cos can't reach anyone lor. And they are government offices. Quite disappointed ler. Think quite impossible to close this deal.

Then, finally a call for today advertisement. Times are bad ar.
Serious buyer, served him for viewing.
Stressed! Panic! Scared!
Wah. Cos 1st time mah. And things are not perfectly smooth but still ok, thanks to nice buyer. =)

1 nice thing that happened today.
Mum called my hp in the morning.
"Darling, you at home? What you doing? Wish you have a nice day ok."
That's the sweetest lor. Don't you think?


Hmm. Hai. (what a way to start a entry haha)
I believed everyone had a merry christmas.
How you spent your christmas?
Me only went to Janice house, and being the only guest.
It was good la. Went home at 9pm, slept at 11.30pm.
No countdown to christmas ler.
While I was lying on my bed, I was thinking about the people still out there in the still young night, making merry.
And I was in bed.
I don't know whether I'm not the sort who enjoy crowds or I don't have the chance to be out there like them.
Somehow, wished I was having fun.

Ok anyway, received a present from Ser yesterday. So sweet of her!!!!!!!!!!
Ya lor, chocolates with watson wrapper. Then Janice gave me a present with watson wrapper. I guess as much. Its the same brand of chocolate.
Thats all for my christmas presents. Watson, chocolates. Nothing that I use/fancy.


Ok time to blog.
Those who have been in constant contact with me must have knew that I have been sick for 8 days.
1st time sick big time. Terrible.

Ok this month agent night.
Not as good as I thought it would be.
Somehow, I felt sherry's attitude towards me have changed. I don't know what caused it or what have I done to make them think that I am not doing work.
It disturbed me very much, and I kept thinking.
Finally today, I sorted out. I do not have to mind about them, UNLESS they really care about me whether I'm making money, or else they are just concern whether they will be earning money from me.
I do not want to be affected by them, whether i feel like working anot, it's my choice right. Why do I have to feel tied down by others.
Anyway, after thinking and thinking, I don't think I've done or said anything wrong to them. Really. So I really don't know why their change in attitude.

Another thing. Can't blame me for not wanting to face everyone. Cos the reality have proven. Not because I thought it would be.
1st case, terry seem to have stayed away from me, after that meet up. Maybe I'm not what I am last time in appearance, and I look ugly now. So..i'm no longer his beloved.
Bro also lost contact. I don't know why. Strange. Stupid.
Jimmy they all, also like no more news. I am really no longer what I am.
So..forgive me for not wanting to meet you, the kind old friends.
I just cannot do it. I don't want to face the cruel reality.
I still wana hide in my shell.
Unless someone can prove to me ppl will still love me after they have seen me.


Yea received my 1st christmas present!
So happy!
I love d present hee.
Thanks dasmond!!!!!!!!!!!!


Everyone seem to hate me ler. Or maybe dun like me.
Why ar. I so hateful?

Msg aunty julie - no reply
Msg terry - word-by-word reply
Msg xiexing - no reply
Msg bro - no reply
Call sherry also no ans. Never call back too.
Even my own cousin, feel sian to talk to me.

Why everyone treat me like tat. I too irritating izzit.
Then I shall not bother anyone lor.


Can PEOPLE be trusted?
The world is not as beautiful as I thought it is.
And I hate it.
Can't there be just nice people around.

Today is a totally damn rotten day with a shitty mood.
Roland did not keep his word. Am disappointed and angry with him.
I did not go for trainings.
Just damn la.
And so I binged. Alot. Until I wana vomit.

And so I disturbed terry too. So sorry. I must be very irritating.
That's me lor. Can be very hateful sometimes. Talk nonsense.


1st unfortuante case
I spent more than $5 to arrive to marsiling on time. (becos of the big rain I had to resort to this)
At 12.10pm,
I msg her, 'I reached'.
She replied, 'Another 5 mins. Sorry.'
Wait and Wait.
At 12.20pm,
I msg her, 'Are you reaching?'
She replied, 'Another 3 mins. Sorry.'
....................................................................................................

Anyway, so she reached. We walked over to the block.
Just 1 more blk away.............................a call came.
Agent: 'Hi winnie, sorry just now someone just placed a deposit. Sorry ah.'
Me: 'HUH!!!!!! I'M ALREADY ON MY WAY.'
Agent: 'Sorry, but I got another unit in tiong bahru for rent. You see you have tenant anot.' (dun have la)
Can you understand how I felt at that point of time?????????
And so we turned and walked back to the stn.
Just let me !@#$%^&**&^%$#@!


THERE GOES MY 1.6 MILLION DEAL.

p/s: yes. please whack myself.


Had a short 1st time talk with Kevin, a new personal trainer I just made friend with.
Nice guy! He also encouraged me. At that point in time, I suddenly felt so fortunate to have so many nice people around me. hehe. =)
beside the point, kevin is good looking haha. =p

Everyone seem to think that I'm very free!!!
OMG. This is bad man.
My goal from monday onwards is to get busy everyday!
Be motivated! Don't be afraid! Just do it! On the gear! GO!

Went sitex fair today alone lor. See I got no friends. =(
Asked so many people until I oso tired.
Thanks guang for his valuable feedback. He helped me lotsa again.
So I'm going to get the new lappy tmr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Her

Altimate moodswing cum stubborn ger
Age: Turning old
Love my parents.
Love children.
Love swimming.
Love to teach.
Love dancing.
Pessimistic.
Escape-ist.

My recipe

How to make a winnie

Ingredients: 5 parts jealousy 3 parts crazyiness 1 part empathy

Method: Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Serve with a slice of lustfulness and a pinch of salt. Yum!