Sunday, December 23, 2007
Ok time to blog.
Those who have been in constant contact with me must have knew that I have been sick for 8 days.
1st time sick big time. Terrible.
Ok this month agent night.
Not as good as I thought it would be.
Somehow, I felt sherry's attitude towards me have changed. I don't know what caused it or what have I done to make them think that I am not doing work.
It disturbed me very much, and I kept thinking.
Finally today, I sorted out. I do not have to mind about them, UNLESS they really care about me whether I'm making money, or else they are just concern whether they will be earning money from me.
I do not want to be affected by them, whether i feel like working anot, it's my choice right. Why do I have to feel tied down by others.
Anyway, after thinking and thinking, I don't think I've done or said anything wrong to them. Really. So I really don't know why their change in attitude.
Another thing. Can't blame me for not wanting to face everyone. Cos the reality have proven. Not because I thought it would be.
1st case, terry seem to have stayed away from me, after that meet up. Maybe I'm not what I am last time in appearance, and I look ugly now. So..i'm no longer his beloved.
Bro also lost contact. I don't know why. Strange. Stupid.
Jimmy they all, also like no more news. I am really no longer what I am.
So..forgive me for not wanting to meet you, the kind old friends.
I just cannot do it. I don't want to face the cruel reality.
I still wana hide in my shell.
Unless someone can prove to me ppl will still love me after they have seen me.
;11:05 PM
